epiphany

yes, it's after that sweeney todd song. because that how i feel, i mean, some people are just downright sick fucks that should get nailed by their dicks on a wall and left hanging there for one thousand years or something.
other than that little incident ... i don't know, really. life sucks so much since last september, i can't even comprehend how has it turned around so quickly. i mean, i got sick, then got back to school and everything went downhill. and i dunno where to go from here. if i could just finish high school now and move on to other things... that would probably be the best thing now. i don't think i can bear even one more second there.
in other news, trying out songbird now. somebody tell me why does it eat so much memory, i mean IT'S JUST A PLAYER it's not supposed to eat up 70 MB of my precious RAM. speaking of RAM, i really need more of that shite, because face it - running winamp, photoshop, firefox and miranda at the same time with 512 is just kind of sick. i wish i could drop one of them, but i can't, most of the time.
other than that, i'm afraid i'm getting back into the Pokémon fandom. i mean, the games are really good ... movies too, but i loathe the anime and what i hate the most is the fandom itself. i haven't had much experiences with foreign fans, but the czech community is a bunch of freaks, sick fucks and idiots. worth to mention at this point would be the fact that i basicaly grew up there. go figure. i don't know if i'll ever continue the rant, i really have mixed feelings about the Pokémon business ... and about anime overally, oh, whatever.
well, now i shall go and read some manga or just learn chemistry. oh my god, i'm so not looking forward to this afternoon, although it will probably be a good experience for what i plan to do in the future AKA psychologist.